It's been a long while since I blogged. Boyfriend is still in the States being with his parents, helping his parents recover and they are doing well and almost fully-recovered. Just need physio-therapies every now and then. The trip to meet his family was very fun. His family is so friendly and welcoming. It eased my anxiety a lot. I realize having your boyfriend's family love + welcome is very comforting. After my past experience, having a good relationship with your boyfriend's family is very crucial and I also realize it really doesn't need too much work. No need to force. It should come naturally. They all welcomed me with open arms and I'm very grateful for it. Traveling to his hometown alone for the first time and be with his family (who were also strangers) was very intimidating at first. I was pretty antsy the day before flying off to see him. I guess stepping out of my comfort zone is very intimidating .... but he comforted me the day before...
"If you don't step out of your comfort zone, you will never know how much fun there is outside waiting for you."
And he is correct about that. He has that power on me. He could make me "man up" and be strong.
After I came back, everything has been the same. I might go to LA later on in the summer to meet up with him and we will come back together. We think that by then his parents will be fully-recovered and will be back to work.
Anyways, about the picture... well, that's not THE ring. My boyfriend told me 2 weeks ago that he would like me to let him know what kind of shape and setting. I said why and "what shape for what?" (How dumb could I be!!! HAHAHA). Apparently, he has been secretly looking for an engagement ring for a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He consulted his married friends and other female friends for tips but he still wasn't too sure what I will like. He wants me to give him some hints of that I will love and cherish forever... not the type of ring when I see it I would go "WTF?!" HAHAHA! So in order to avoid that embarrassing WTF moment when he pops the question, he decided to just come straight up and ask for hints.
To be honest, I don't really care how many carats or whatever because as reckless and careless as I am, if I wear such a fancy ring, I would be so anxious all the time and check the ring every 5 seconds. I might end up accidentally pop the rock off the ring setting or get the parts scratched. For me, it's all the thoughts that count (but I still don't like a gold ring!).
I'm still trying on rings from different jewelers and see which shapes and setting, and even size will look best in my eyes. When the sales associates say, "Will your fiance come with you next time?" or "What is your fiance's budget?" I'm a little embarrassed because shouldn't my boyfriend still my boyfriend if I have not received the proposal? Isn't fiance only be called AFTER you got the ring? I bet all these sales associates I met thought "WOW, this girl sure is desperate... she is picking her own engagement ring to FORCE her boyfriend to buy for her and coerce him to marry her." I sure got that feeling in my head when I walked in. Maybe it's just in my head.
Oh well... anyways, I shall wait for him to decide if he will go with my hints or go get something he likes instead.
This is a big deal to me... I was even shaking and had this stupid smile on my face when I tried on the rings "for fun". I can't imagine what I would be like when he proposes. :)
source: weheartit
