Since last post, I have been feeling exhausted. Work has been a mess and the most frustrating thing is the mess wasn't even my fault but on the third party. It has costed our company a lot for someone else's fault. Discouraged and tired of having to resolve third party's problem... I suddenly wish to have someone to hear my work problems.

I used to tell my ex about my work happenings and whatnot because he is also in the same field. (Now thinking about it, I wasn't even sure if he was even paying attention to what I was saying anyways.) But whether he actually took in what I said or not, it was good to have someone so close to listen to you. Since the breakup, I have learned to take care of myself and be independent. I learned to resolve the problems on my own and with my coworkers. I think I talked to my ex was in hopes that he would give me a shoulder to lean on (well... metaphorically-speaking, of course). Now that his shoulder has "disappeared", I need to learn not to be emotionally-dependent on someone for sure.

I remember one time that I was talking to a good friend of mine and she had undergone an ugly divorce. (FYI, her husband is a fxxxing psycho.)

Would you want to have someone there JUST for the sake of being there? or would you rather not have anyone there?

I think it comes down to either finding a rebound at this time to fill the void or willing to wait til you find someone you really want to be with. That's a big difference. At certain times where work is a pit, I wish to have a shoulder for me to lean on, but I want a shoulder to stay with me through the test of time.